Today has been a little bit easier. Still feeling tired and that everything is an uphill struggle though.

Had my counselling session today which was quite in depth and hard work but at least I can see some light at the end of the tunnel. Also received quite a scary letter from work, it was basically the minutes from our last meeting but also mentioned terminating my employment. I have another meeting with the occupational health doctor on Thursday, but although my manager keeps requesting these reviews with occy health, she does not take any notice of any of the doctors recommendations. I feel that work have given up on me and are hoping I will not go back, which is not having a very good effect on my already rock bottom self esteem.

Joshua has been moaning about his hair annoying him but refusing to go to the barbers. I have no problem with him growing his hair, but he does not want it long, he just doesn't like having it cut. Dragged him to the barbers after school and then took him swimming and made him do 8 lengths. Had loads of moaning and complaining and it demanded a lot of my willpower but we managed it!

Have managed to walk a couple of miles today and booked in for aquafit in the morning. Hoping the exercise will lift my mood as well. Going to catch up on the ironing now and then relax with some TV and reading in bed.

Current Mood: determined